Honor roll

I've been thinking about how
I used to hang out, smoking weed by myself
Now I'm flying, for real put my seat belt on
I'm overseas soon I'll be somewhere else
It's funny how it gets so real so fast
Dreaming of the afterlife or maybe you don't have to die
I get so scared sometimes, I don't know what's next for me
I don't know what's best for me no more

All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
It's just that I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry

I've been fooling around
Sending pics, sending out zero fucks, it's a cop out
And I know that my head might be brain dead, white flag
I'm a forfeit, too bad, can't stop my world from collapsing
I'm afraid of relapsing cause this limbo too fast, I might get carsick
All these moving targets are IP to the home where my heart is
Sometimes I wish I was back where I started

All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
It's just that I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry

It's funny how it gets so real so fast
Dreaming of the afterlife or maybe you don't have to die
I get so scared sometimes, I don't know what's next for me
Don't know what's gotten into me, an entity
But need to leave, leave me be

All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
All my friends doing Adderall
I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll
Slurring my speech till I said it all
Filling my heart with the edibles
It's just that