Mental masturbation

My self destructive behavior
I allowed you to flow through out
Self contained empty shell
Stripped down murder song
An unbreakable bond, Mother to child
Eyes covered with filth blinded by brutal truth
Choke, die, suffocated, you're broken
More than glass you shattered hearts
Continue with your self medicated
Thinking you're OK for now
Until I am me and called upon
To be who I should be
A father, a husband, a man who works hard
I will sell my soul for my family
Scarred for life, For I am only Aaron
For honesty is my only excuse for being human
Crucified, raped for life activated to kill
Kill me off, put me back where I belong
On your memory shelf
See you sooner than later
You're dead to me
Mental masterbation