You should be hated here

They're all surrounding
We're both hoping
Failing slowly
Attempting one thing to stand up
With dignity
To walk away

(Never thought I could do anything right
Didn't mean to say that you were wrong)

Do the time to prove it all
The new lines
Wrapped my eyes around
The scars upon my head
Were only meant to spell apologies

This night is guaranteed to all turn black
With memories that haunt the past

There's a ten point deer that someone said was impossible to find
Until you find it on the freeway standing stupid looking blind

I'm only here to fall apart
You've been angry from the start
But I know these trainwrecks happen all the time

Everything no one knows
You should be hated here by now
This was the prettiest lie that I told tonight
It's been the prettiest lie that I told all year
The unmade bed inside the room
Where I don't feel comfortable at all
Where blankets stare at me for hours
And I stare right back so self righteously

It could be now
And I don't feel proud
I'm so sorry now
I'm sorry now

And it all comes down to composure that's been lost
When it all comes down to composure that's been lost