Beautifully shattered

Slowly it pours through my veins charred mind charred mind in mid stage
Feel your scars taste your pain
Im trying to explain
These thoughts my faults and everything that gets caught never gets away
My life will never be the same
Fuck that it's ok in my own misery
Conjure up the pain to boost the memory

Ive been broken torn down and rebuilt
By me and no one else
Fighting your constant input of ignorance so well
Dont try and peg me
Youll never understand me
These flaws you claim in vain are the same reasons that damn you

Fuck that Im ok in my own misery
Conjure up the pain to boost the memory

Kill to feel sane

Sitting watching wounded by my own hand
Sudden scare do compare
Split feeling missed meaning why?
I know when its going to be alright Ive been here twice before
I never wanted to take it this far
Im sorry its over
Im sorry I tried
I never wanted this way I lied
Im now the possessed, the uninvited
My scars have opened again too far for me to hide it
Ive lost my drive
My faith has faded
Theres no point to this life I hate it