Morbid reactions

Hopelessly trapped inside this world of hate,
An idividious delusion I choose to create.
Mass eradication, obliterate the lie,
Within the realms of maddness, phobic cancer thrives.

Alone I try to ease this pain,
But what I've lost I can't regain.
Revert judgment of a far worse fate,
As death becomes my one escape.
I look inside to see the light,
Eluded by the will to fight.
My mind and body now decay,
My sanity has been betrayed!

An apparent solution to this sarcastice life,
Alone I am crushed by it's phantasmic might.
Deceived by it's soothing words, I'm pulled farther down,
Addicted to my death I pray to die! End it now!

Alone I try to ease this pain,
But what I've lost I can't regain.
Revert judgment of a far worse fate,
As death becomes my one escape.
I look inside to see the light,
Eluded by the will to fight.
My mind and body now decay,
My sanity has been betrayed!

An unwilling victim I'm forced to survive,
A slow and painful death, imolation of my mind.
Suffering in anguish, the pain within concealed,
My mortality is damaged and these scars will never heal!

Alone I try to ease this pain,
But what I've lost I can't regain.
Revert judgment of a far worse fate,
As death becomes my one escape.
I look inside to see the light,
Eluded by the will to fight.
My mind and body now decay,
My sanity has been betrayed!