Give and forgive

The light is here again
Flashing my room in blue
I've had no sleep
Wishing I knew the truth

And there's no one near
There's no one here
Sometimes I think there never was

They tell you to give and forgive
But what if I can't
Because I've given everything
And been left with nothing
Then you can call me lovesick
I did my best
Because I've given everything
And I've been left again

It's easy to believe
That I'm petty and mean
For leaving
After what I'd seen

You only see
What you want to see
So I guess the fault isn't entirely on me

They tell you to give and forgive
But what if I can't
Because I've given everything
And been left with nothing
Then you can call me crazy
I did my best
Because I've given everything
And I've been left again

And after all the proof
You chose your side
Why do you have to close your eyes?
Why do I have to understand your side?
When you never tried to understand mine