Guilt free

I will scream until my lungs collapse from the pressure
It's building up inside
(it's not like it's happened before)
It's building up inside
(it's not like this happened before)

And it's hard to remember this, it still makes me sick
As the days grow longer and time pulls us apart
And as I fade away?
Have I done enough for those I love to be proud of me
For my friends and for my family and I'll be with you, forever and always

So let me go
Nothing stays the same
Your gold will wither into grey
Not everything we love grows with age
Your roses will blossom and fade away

Take me away
Take me so I can live guilt free
And I'll hold onto these memories, and every last thing you ever said to me
And I promise to remember you for who you are and not who you wanted to be
But I'm so close to giving up, let me sink
I've had enough of all the things I love so much
I'm drowning, you let me.

And I'm scared of my regrets
I'm terrified there will be nothing left
Just the thought, it leaves my heart racing in my chest
(My heart's racing in my chest)

But I'll be with you, forever and always.