Things left unsaid

Things Left Unsaid
I'll never know why I've always felt this way
From the earliest day that I know I've felt the darkness
Look in the mirror that familiar grin
Not a smile just apathy
Never met a person that I'd trust
Paranoia unexplained
Never loved a woman Never trust a soul
I'm alone all alone in this world

Tortured by the things I could have said
But that day is so far behind
And after all these years
I keep coming back to the things left unsaid

My memories hurt me I've never felt right
Always on the outside looking the opposite way
I've held my chances but it always falls through my fingers
Can't explain the madness the sadness of being one
Don't recognize what I see
Face in the mirror staring back at me
Empty eyes under dark hair
Evil eyes blank stare
Heartless Careless
The boy now a man Still the same what a shame
What a shame never grew out of the shell, my hell

Thoughts running round all through my head
The words are so hard to find
But the one thing that I've learned
You can't let it go unsaid