Beautiful unreality

I run away from everything
I don't want to see
I'd rather live without
Than be half dead with you
Never wanted this to be me
Never asked to be this way
Every night I lay and wonder
How this shadow became me.

Trapped in my beautiful unreality.
No way out of this prison I've made
I'm lost, halfway dreaming of life

Never wanted this to be me.
Never asked to be this way.
Every night I lay and wonder
How this shadow became...
Me!

Watching all the others
How do they make it through
Their lifes all seem so perfect
Do they realize I'm not here?
I imagine what I used to be
And scream softly to myself.
Where do I go from here?
How did I disappear?