Frozen reflections

Happened chance to see the truth
Fed the lies within our youth
Years of pain
These tears that rain
Distorted mind, distorted truth

Puddles dried so you can't see
Lifeless eyes present to thee
Watch myself daze
Through water's face
Replace my soul, replace me

Liquid former
Shadowed terror
So I venture
In to my past

A utopia
My dream
Saw a vision
To help myself

Drown me now
Sickness of my own
Truth of all the
Lies of which you
Fed in to my mind

Save me from life

Recreate my past
Which I now forget
The times I would smile
With no worries

Make me strong again

Stare in to my eyes
Feel the pain I've felt
Sense the hurt I have
Now that they have gone

Peering down to the river
See myself playing
Younger version of myself
Was once happy and content

Why can't I live again,
Since I've never hurt them?
Touching water...
Grabbing my reflection

Mold myself to my needs
Since I've been killing myself
Frigid air held the picture
Froze my perfect reflection
But, I wish to consume
And establish all I used to be
Wish myself back to health
Respect for my own truth

Skipping stones
Scar my face
Youth has died
As have I

You dream of passion no more