Funeral mist

Struggling with hope, burning within.
Everything seems negative.
Nowhere to hide, you give no thought.
I can't live that way!
Analyze everything, question everything.
You choose not to question.
Pretend the emptiness isn't there.

It never goes away,
Never goes away!
Face the truth and face the pain,
No matter what this truth may be.
The truth I truly need,
Even if this truth is pain!
The funeral mist evokes.
My jealousy of their passing away

May you lord forgive me for my diminished
Hope of your existence
Will your heaven really be better
Than nothingness?

One more day gone
One closer to truth.
Closer to death!
Be grateful for your gifts,
So called gift of life,

Curse!
I thank you for your comfort,
Your balance, yet for what
Why?
I hope some day this pain will go away
You can keep your infernal eternal life!