Tears of a broken sky

Life,
Nothing is real but our dreams
conflicted nostalgia repeats
For I'm chosen by anguish
Believe in nothing, there's no trust in memory
These falsifications fisleading hypnotic vibes
They're constantly taunting me with notions of suicide
I should've never existed in this life
The day of my birth case a stone up to shatter the sky
It's raining this cryptic ripened blend
The poisons of self-doubt descend
Now I'm staring at the nothingness expand
While uncoiling my burden throughout the land
shrouded in failure's abusive dance
Sadistic memory truth's blinded glance
Disorder chaotic symptomatic display
A deranged perception I can't explain
Family ties restraints, cutting the cord of life
Blame pushing the line off the frame
While I'm chasing the razor blade
Lacerate, penetrate frailty
Break free from life and let go of these questions
Why
Tears of a broken sky
And I'm clouded with lies when these questions arise
These tears of a broken sky
I'm caught in the middle of your fucking games
You claw and you bite me without any shame
You're scarring my mindset with all of your lies
Tears of a broken sky
These questions they haunt me like nightmares at best
Compulsion, the puling from under my chest
The silence is calling the misery's high
These tears of a broken sky
Disturbing memories remain
My torture, my torment, my flame
Distorted collection replays
It's raining this cryptic ripened blend
Unchain me, before I'm submerged within this storm of lies and these tears
These tears of a broken sky
I'm sick and tired of always wondering why
Must the truth always be silent to me in life
I trust in nothing because there's always something to hide
So remove my mask and erase my past's disguise
Trust in nothing because there's always something to hide
Ignore the truth and in the darkness cry
For all along it was me who was cast aside