The words that escape me

Sometimes I wish you would die
just to see how it would feel
to drown in an ocean of the pity I feel
for myself and the words that escape me

Sometimes car goes too fast
and the breaks doing all that they can
and the rain unforgiving as it tenderly falls
on your breast and a windshield colliding
on your breast and a windshield colliding

Sometimes the phone doesn't ring
and then when you never expect
with the voice of a mother as it wavered and cracked
with wishes of get to know better
with wishes of get to know better

Sometimes I wish you would die
just to see how I would look
by the ambulance light
with a grief stricken face
and the thought that we've never been closer
and the thought that we've never been closer