For the rest of my life

Enjoying last moments of blackness,
Don`t dare to open up my eyes, but I do!
Deepest repression becomes my bitter truth,
Human fate doesn`t know a compromise,
Don`t concrete !
I fear looking down on me, Can`t believe what I see,
Thougt it could never happen to me,
Reason far from reality
Intimate eyes rest on my face, Moving effortlessly with
Disillusion, Nevermore !
Young man emerges from hazy shadows,
I reflect and arrive at a sad conclusion,
He was me before !
Soon return to restful blackness,
I`m longing for because unending pain,
For a while !
Nightmares tear me from this cage,
Realize situation stays the same,
Unwanted child !

Remember just one second of negligence,
Same eyes, oh so different world, Same body,
Oh so changed facts,
For the rest of my life !!

I fear waking up once more, Feel pain invades to the core,
Doubt of my strength evermore,
Be forgotten I`m afraid for
Young man gives me a pitying smile,
Living life in a vigorous mode,
Nevermore !
His fingers slip slowly from my hand,
Free himself from unpleasant load,
He was me before !!

Remember just ....