Wondering

Through these red eyes
The blur and the pain of mistakes I've made
Lead to my demise
It's all unclear and what I'd feared might be the best way out
There is no doubt in your mind

But you were wondering
If I were to stay
Would you let go of my hand and throw it all away
So I've been thinking
Been thinking too much
The last thing you'll ever need's
another empty touch

I breathe through sighs
And live through lies
Do you realize how I've fallen
Look what I've done, what I've become
An abomination
A creature I despise

But I was wondering
If it's okay
You let me take your hand
And lead you through this dance
And I've been hoping
That you won't let go
'Cause I've fallen harder and faster than you know

I'm so blind
I can't see
The walls close in on me
And if you're wondering
Why it took so long
I ran away from you
I knew I would always feel wrong
Now I am wondering If I reach for someone
Will you take me or leave me
Take me or leave me, will you be the one?

Through these red eyes
The blur of your smile
All the while