Destroyer hole

This good feeling
Could I stay like this forever?
I like this mess
But I begin to feel something different

I have my reasons
But I think I'm breaking down
Did you see
All the things that I have destroyed?

Destroyer hole
Affecting my bloodstream
Bottomless pit
Killing me no mercy

Sometimes I feel
Than is a war that I've lost
I really wanted
Be stronger and get it over with

I don’t know what to say
When I look in your eyes
I just wanted to earn
Your love and understanding