Beneath the surface

I could have never imagined that the pain I've been feeling
Would end up with everything that I've been building
Can't control my thoughts
I feel that every day that passes I'm losing them
I'm getting lost, getting lost in myself
My thoughts command my body

And I don't have control of my acts
And this sensation that I had long since forgotten
Relives with the force of a lightning
That crosses my being

I feel the air running out, life is fading away
As if the life in this plane were in vain
Tired of controlling feelings

Here comes the explosion, and finally
The world perceives that there is something wrong
But you'll never find out what or why
Living every day a mourning for myself