Lost wishes

Since you can remember
They've been so many
Given advices to you
Wanted to teach how to live
Never asked for your thoughts
Never listened to your words
They've known the way
For your own life

You wanted to break it out
And lead yourself
But they've with results
Frustrated your plans
And with their trust
Blunted your mind
By still new lies

One day at last
You noticed it all
Understood how much
They've benn able to take
But you've been too weak
To keep living this way
And to take a revenge
Only go away it's all

Thick cord and trees noise
It's your last walk
Fear of dying and joy
You've decided yourself

And you have the noose
And tears and laughter
And insanity in last whiles
And then only short pain

You wanted to break it out
And lead yourself
But they've with results
Frustrated your plans
And with their trust
Blunted your mind
By still new lies

Darkness
And anything no longer