It's doubtful

On the back of a string of rough luck
Get a look at me now
Did you notice I already gave up?
Could you say it somehow?

I give what I can't take like an unmanned army
so if my back should break just pretend you never met you

if I'm happy there's a good chance I'm lying through my teeth
'cause without you it's doubtful
and it would take a miracle I know
to set this straight and give back the hours that I stole
'cause without you it's doubtful

you couldn't wait for me to turn it around
wasted half of your life, such a very long time
it seems I'm only good at letting you down
by the look in your eyes