I need some help

I've been lied to led around and then cut down
Been spit on and walked upon by you
I've been run through slapped 'till sober
Then driven over held at bay then thrown away by you
But not anymore
Never again
Never again by you
I need some help beside me
Got to throw the past behind me
Now more than yesterday
The truth must come alive
I feel more than half dead
The gun lies there beside my bed
You don't forget a thing
I said to you I been sick all day
Yesterday and everyday
I'm sick of all that has to with you