Jaded hope

What I've been through confuses all things.
Is what I've done wrong?? Is what I've said right??
I couldn't stay a place where I felt good.
The things had gone when I noticed it.

what is that? what is that? what is that? what do you want?
what are you seeing? and what are you seeking?

What I've spent and What I've wasted.
That sent me down in the bottom of shit.
Clear thought brings me to a place I want.
The things had gone when I noticed it.

what is that? what is that? what is that? what do you want?
And what can you see in the end?
Can you feel my breath?

I swear my pride.
I'll break the wall of hate.
I've been fighting to break the past .
I'll try to brave myself.

I'll never yeild to your pressures.
Don't stand in my path.
My pain is nothing to you,hidding behind you.
No matter how hard the hope is, I'll try to get my truth.
The hope in depth. Can you feel my breath?