Shadowalker

60 Days of night, 20 years and I'm still not fucking fine
It's getting hard to feel
6 Feet under too late to save me, I'm not okay
One way trip to the grave will take me, I'm not okay

I’m not okay

I won’t let this take me
But I’ve been here one too many times
I know this place is fucked up darling
When it seems hard to live and so easy to die

These feelings won't go away
Tell me that I'm gonna be okay
I close my eyes and take a breath
Each one I take is one less left
Wasted youth, eternal debt
Terrified of what comes next
I'm sick of all the emptiness
Living dead amongst the rest

So tell me

Will these days ever end
Are we getting closer or lost again
I won’t let this take me
Show me the way
Will these days ever end
Are we getting closer or lost again
I won’t let this take me
Show me the way

This absence

Hey, hey, I'm not okay
Hey, hey, I'm not okay

All I want is to feel like I belong, is that so fucking wrong
I'm a wreck, I'm a mess, nothing more, nothing less
Just a waste, I feel so fucking out of place

I won’t let this take me
But I’ve been here one too many times
I know this place is fucked up darling
When it seems hard to live and so easy to die

I'm so sick of being lost in familiar places, counting the time I've wasted
Stuck in the motions I can't seem to break away, break away
Tell me I'll be fine, and this is all just in my mind,

Will these days ever end
Are we getting closer or lost again
I'm lost again