Inherent emptiness

Days are passing and the agony increases by the minute,
several reflections flows in my mind.
Questions that I'm not able to answer...

Why is this existance so absurd.
People surrounding me, but I feel a deep loneliness,
they will never find it rules without sense.

Very difficult to explain with words...
Normal people searching happiness and contentment,
with stupid and superficial methods.
They will never find it,
rules without sense,
looking through the window,
only mindless bodies who can't think in a decent way.
I'm even more frustrated.