Tears in the ashes

Instead of tears
Are the diamonds falling
There is no one
Who can answer
Shouting into my loneliness
My loneliness

Tonight I died again
Standing up from ashes
Slowly walking
Through cold darkness
Warming up my frozen heart
In my hands

Instead of tears

Instead of tears
Are the diamonds falling
There is nothing
More to give
There is no sense
In asking why
There is no one
Who can answer
Shouting into
My loneliness

Ruins of the dearest places
My ruins
Shadows of beloved people
My shadows
Now I must pay
For every second
Which can I wandern
Between life and death
But now I inhaled
The clearest truth
And spat up the filth

Waiting for dawning
Hope the sun will illuminate
My death verdict
And my body is
Coming apart
To thousand splinters
To stand up from the ashes
Tomorrow again