Self disgust

Dwelling on that time in my life
I was overwhelmed with a stale satisfaction
Killing the bond between those I cared for
My actions were stained
with selfishness and unwanted pain
I've done wrong
How could I have played the part of the villian?
Even the thought of it destroys my heard
I regret. I fucking regret
Every time I became a stranger in your mind
But I've changed today
I'm not the same
Can this be washed away?
I've done wrong
Memories of constant betrayal are stained
Like blood on my hands
Cleansing these thoughts are all that I with for
But I know I can't undo the past
I am imprisoned
Guilt is all I feel. Unable to shed this skin to purify
Forever to feel this burden
Of self made failure and misery