The target of the pain

Yeah, I did a lot of things to you
They were done for a feeling I still feed
I could never imagine I would do this someday
But I broke my silence, took a breath and did

I've dug the deepest hole I could
Just to find in me something better
So I wrote everything I really felt
And I delivered you this fucking letter

Well, I hope you find someone who
Can do everything I did and more
You told me things I can't forget
But there are new things I'll be fighting for

I swear I'll never do this all again
Cause' you never deserved this effort of mine
I tried so hard, but hurted myself in vain
I guess I shouldn't have crossed this line
But now I know what were my real intentions
I've realized that heart is worth less than brain
That's why I regret everything I gave you
Cause' I don't wanna be the target of the pain, not again

I think you could've had it all
If you've let me show you what I can do
But it proves you're a coward and
It also proves that I was a truly fool

Sometimes I wonder what we could have been
Even that you haven't given me hope
I was seen as the fucking guilty of it all
And still ask to myself why I needed you like a dope

Why don't you let me in peace
Instead of let me in piece?
Why do you keep scaring me
If you're in the list of the things that I wanna miss?

I swear I'll never do this all again
Cause' you never deserved this effort of mine
I tried so hard, but hurted myself in vain
I guess I shouldn't have crossed this line
But now I know what were my real intentions
I've realized that heart is worth less than brain
That's why I regret everything I gave you
Cause' I don't wanna be the target of the pain, not again

No, I couldn't live with this kept in secret
But things didn't work out the way I expected
If I could turn back time to change, I'do it
And would have avoid to be rejected
Now, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be
The target of the pain, my own pain, again