Wasting what i haven't lost yet

We will not do this again, with your hands on my chest,
whispering this blasphemy.
Everything is going completely wrong right now,
this is the price I will pay,
I will now watch this all fall and crumble at your knees.
No mercy no grace will be given you get what you pay for,
I have no sympathy for you who refuse to change,
why did I even try to bring out the best in you?
THIS IS THE DAY! I will now bring us back to where it all began
and see what went wrong, we will find a way to keep this from crushing us
You've ruined me twice, it's your law,
and you know there's not a chance of forgiveness anymore.
You're breaking what you don't see costly,
I'm wasting what I haven't lost yet. Tell me more.