Crowd of a thousand

I'm losing the light inside of me
Swallowed my tongue eternally
Kept myself away from me
I started the conspiracy

Fading
Caving in

Everything that lifted me
Has turned into dead currency
And in this empty galaxy
I take a hit for gravity

I want so much
To connect with anybody
Reach out and choke myself
Like mixing blood and honey

I'm looking for light inside of me
There's something there I can almost see
Through all these clouds that cover me
None of this seems real to me