Last chance

It's killing me
But I can't stop paying attention
I know it will kill me
I know I need an intervention
And the harder I try, the harder I cry
Thinking about everything that I left behind
The more that I try, the more I realize
Life keeps going, my new world made me blind

And I seem to go always in the opposite direction
I couldn't see through the confusion inside my imagination
I don't know where I've been, I don't know how I got there
But now I know where I'm going, I don't wanna say nowhere
I got lost for a while and had trouble finding my way back
Everyone's changed
I was already intense
I want somebody to help
Where's my last chance?

It's like a poison
Or maybe a cure
I know it's killing me
For sure
Like a poison spreading through me
And now I know everything I was supposed to be
All the friends I should talk to
All the words that I should say
Everything's right and true
But I've been lost in a different way

And I seem to go always in the opposite direction
I couldn't see through the confusion inside my imagination
I don't know where I've been, I don't know how I got there
But now I know where I'm going, I don't wanna say nowhere
I got lost for a while and had trouble finding my way back
Everyone's changed
I was already intense
I need somebody to help
Where's my last chance?

I went nowhere, where do I turn around?
I tried something different
And after all, I'm proud
I don't want be like the others
They're all the same
The boring old story, with the same old end
I am just nostalgic
When I see what I could've been
Then I realize, that I do what works for me

This is my safe place... and I don't wanna leave
Why would I want a last chance...? If I like the way I live?

And I seem to go always in the opposite direction
I like it, I like it, I like it
I don't know where I've been, I don't know how I got there
But the old people from my past, they aren't anywhere
And I don't seem to care
Because I don't, I don't