Pain on my mind

It's anyone’s guess
How I ended up like this
I used to be love
But now I'm just flesh
It's anyone’s try
How I've screwed it up this time
I thought music was enough
But that was a lie

I never followed my feelings
I followed my brain, so tired
And even my heart's hardwired
To be lonely inside
Don't have much to believe in
Don't know anyone real, go hide
None of my friends ask why
I really hate to cry
I've got pain on my mind

Keep up the charades
Continue to play these games
They might seem like fun
Until you play fate
I think you're confused
I think that your life's a ruse
You might think you’ve won
But you’ve forgot the rules

I never followed my feelings
I followed my brain, so tired
And even my heart's hardwired
To be lonely inside
Don’t have much to believe in
Don't know anyone real, go hide
None of my friends ask why
I really hate to cry
I've got pain on my mind

I never asked for much
I just asked for love
But I guess that's too much when it comes to you
I get played for a fool
And at this point it’s like crying tears in a pool
Scenes like you won't believe
Like a movie screen
But I guess that's too much when it comes to this
There's no hit just a miss
And I'm falling I'm sinking into the abyss