Recall, recede

I've been counting ways that I could justify
The choices I've made that led us here today
And I've been counting on you to do the same thing
But I set my expectations far too high
Like always, like always

And it's funny how we make ourselves
Believe that this is happiness
We're trapped inside our minds
And in your basement on separate ends of a couch
I'm trying so hard, and that's the problem

'Cause I can't shake this feeling from my bones
That you're just the girl who's too scared to let this go
And I'm just the boy who no matter what can't seem
To stay content for more than an hour or so

I would spend a lifetime searching for the words to say
If it meant that this feeling in my gut would go away
'Cause I'm sick of wishing that I could have a change of heart
And running away just to crawl back to the start

I can't shake this feeling from my bones
That you're just the girl who is too scared to let this go
And I'm just the boy who, no matter what
No matter fucking what, can't seem to stay content
I guess I'm better off alone
I guess I'm better off alone

And in the end, it doesn't even matter who you are
It just matters who I'm not