Washed away

Today I nearly cried for lack of contours
No bounds, I'm not sure
No strands laying on my pillow

Today I sat alone in a crowd
And I sailed above them
Sincerity washed away
Since nothing is spoken out loud

I've been going off
I've been drifting away
I can feel my whole world
Shifting and becoming diluted

Today I fell apart
Don't know when to stop or to start
Nothing is as it should be
Cannot find what is me

Today I came loose at the seams
No nightmares, no dreams
Silence took me over
I don't understand what it means