In my head and out of my hands

Breathing in the air from the edge of the ocean
I've barely got my toes wet in this ocean of a holiday
I haven't had one drop of fun yet
I call you up, it's not that late, but there's still no answer
It's been a couple of days, things wouldn't be so difficult if we weren't so far away

The distance is bad enough, so we should keep in touch
You can go out with your friends, I'll probably call back again

You say it's only because I'm far away, but I know what you need
You say "tell me that you're here to stay, don't leave me another day"
I know the blame's on me

Filling up my lungs with this January frostbite, It creeps into my insides
I shrug and I lie and I say everything's alright
I'm missing you and I'm cold, and not because of the weather
I doubt things will get better, I'm guessing that this is the end
This winter's dug the deepest hole in my heart

I'm trying to dig myself out, but in my head there's this doubt
That leaves me choked up and worn down, and you won't help me out

No, you say it's only because I'm far away, but I know what you need
You say "tell me that you're here to stay, don't leave me another day"
I know the blame's on me

Half of me wishes you hadn't made all those trips to see me
Because all of those trips are what made me fall for you
Would things have been different if I had moved up to the city
Sure, Boston is beautiful, but so is anywhere with you