This will hurt

A familiar house I enter
Viewing a staircase...
That leads to a tragic scene
A room thats lit by unseen stars

Peaking through an a jared door
A heavy head being supported by soft hands
Reliving the moment of them caressing my scars

Feeling the illusion of rejuvenation
Seeing the tears that I used to dry from your face
Falling...

He enters...
Makes her forget the past
As a lifetime of sinful lust pours onto her
Two bodies become one
Witnessing every breath taking moment
Never ending...

Heavy breathing
This numbing feeling
Choking from a dry throat
Accompanied by tears
My world is crashing down...
Dying from within...

I don't know whats more painful
Gutting my wrist
Putting a bullet between my eyes
Or viewing the rest of this sickening experience
Either way
This will hurt...