You completely destroy me

You completely destroy me
You destroy me like I never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things
Like her lips and her eyes, break my heart
That they're not mine
And I dont know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty sheel to wither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that would never really were

I used to call you mine, but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but just stand here in the cold?
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You're everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my hearth that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learn to love
But then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please belive me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect, not in a single way
And that day you saved me
Is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone to live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be proprely diagnosed
Because you were my pill, but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter that you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself, and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside, I just can't belive you chose to leave
You were my reason for living, how could you do such a heinous thing?

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protecting me from the storm, and gave me a chance at life
And I loved the way of cared, and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they're right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope your happy
I hope you're doing fine
I love you still today
Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you chose to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me
But you've turned into a ghost

And you're nowere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We wont have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't go all together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand