Caved in

I've been living in this nightmare
Am I awake, or is this just a dream?
I'm running blindly through the dark
Something is chasing me
I dare not look back
Because if I do I fear for my sanity

When I think I'm safe
Life just proves me wrong
I closed my eyes for a moment
And everything was fucking gone
Standing alone I'm hoping for the end
Better than this misery that I've been force fed

And still I can't recognize myself
I'm not the person I was before
Anger flows through my veins
Polluting my soul
Changing me into this beast
That time can't erase

Your broken promises
I'll take them to my grave
Consumed by all this rage
I am the monster that you made
There is a shadow
It hangs above me
And it's feeding on my will to live
It stalks me to to my grave
Surviving off my pain
And all the shit you carved away

I've tried to blame myself
But I know deep inside I was too good for you
So I take this pain and bottle it away
And allow my anger to possess me

This is the truth I must deal with everyday
I can't look back or I'll lose my sanity
And when it's gone
I feel I will follow suit
I'll strike a fucking match
And you can watch me as I burn
Your broken promises
I'll take them to my grave
Consumed by all this rage
I am the monster you fucking made