Just how i feel (part 1)

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you want to be or not
You don't want to go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

You're not a martyr for burning yourself at the stake
You're a firestarter, learning nothing from your mistakes
You make mistakes
And I don't need to be told how you perceive my reality when I'm simply living in it
So keep your propaganda to yourself
I don't want to hear someone else's words from you, just because you once fell for it
It's so selfish
'Cause loving someone is like having a
Suitcase around your neck
And every time you fall apart or fight you're throwing another brick in it
And eventually it's too heavy for you to carry 'cause it weighs you down
So you say: I'm sorry
Which has no meaning
It's just another sound to you

And might stop writing
It might keep you crying

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you want to be or not
You don't want to go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

I think I was rounding up when I said you had my full attention
But I need you to like me, because someday I might need your protection
I feel like it's past-life regression that makes me care so much
But every day I strive to find another way to get through this stuff
I bought a Buddy Holly fake book and thought I'd learn how to play guitar
'Cause I thought someday we'd make some sense of this and go far, like you said
Look what happened, the money changed Kanye, but Kanye changed the money
And now we're all striving for a fame just to feel something

And might stop writing
It might keep you crying

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you want to be or not
You don't want to go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

As I was lying in bed I ran this conversation through my head, and it ended very differently
I guess at the end of the day, the future that I want to dictate looks nothing like reality
(I want to see you fail
You
Your ego's only your friend
When you