King of spades

Shots heard like falling books
The king finally got his looks
All that's left of him now's a fiery grave
A man of silent shame we couldn't save

Tell us what the view is like below
Does it suit your aspirations?
Apologies to you and to your kin
For not pretending to even care
I didn't like who I was way back then
At least I tried to live again

Blood on the mirror revealed
Anguish that was never healed
Couldn't you wait until to tomorrow
To save everyone here the sorrow?

Tell us if the gun was worth the fate
Can you see the soles of my shoes?
I am walking upright with a grin
I wish you cared enough to be here now
We'll still walk together, you and me
As my remembered friend and life-to-be