Anesthesia

Everything I had I fucking lost.
And I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying to find a way.
To make sense of this because.
Every arrow shot misses the mark.
Every word of mine fell on deaf ears.
Each day is a struggle, each day a new sin.

And standing here from where I'm at.
I've had a lot of them. But sink or swim I know I've tried. I know I've got the key to find out what's inside.
So medicate me from the inside out.
To erase all the pain and erase all the doubt.
Leave me numb, too numb to fucking feel.

The constant attacks.
The words that rip my throat.
And the wounds carved into my back.
It's a constant fight.
It's a constant fight.
To not bow down, to do what's right.
Medicate me and numb the pain.