Past darkness

I've always ended up in front of you
With one disappointment after another
With carnal wounds - so many times without any notice
Once again, will you even bother?

Will you bother about the pain
They do not know exist within me?
So many times I wished it all way
But a stain like this is rather hard to miss

My dream, your being means so much more than
All twisted feeling I was trying to
Suppress my nothingness with

Beautiful being, you mean so much more than my own mind
Even if I want to, even if I long to be next to you
I know it's not right to consume your shining surface!

My own darkness has made me too naive
To dare to search what's behind
I need to heal, I need to drain myself
Before I can meet you again

Shaking, in a confused state I cry
Don't let me hurt my most present dream
Don't let me become what I do not seem
I'll rather die...

I rather die

But a stain like this is rather hard to miss
Not for the beholder, but for me...

I can not go on like this
I need to meet the one that never fails
The only one who never fails my made up dream

Your will be done