Inescapable destiny

I was decomposing on the inside
and had festering and suppurating wounds on my skin
the pain and grief i could no longer hide
it's not just the physical pain but also the psychological pain that hurts

my body is getting weaker and it slowly falls apart
every day the pain is getting worse, but noone cares
i'm just someone with AIDS, the worst disease ever
thousands of people died already, some of them committed suicide
they couldn't stand the pain. to heal this was the only way

you hear the people talking behind your back, even your friends don't speak to you anymore
thats the extra pain that brings this disease

i don't know what to do and i feel useless
i'm all alone on the cruel world feeling sicker and weaker
it feels like i'm decaying alive and the pain will never stop until i die
so that's what i'm going to do, i'm going to end my life
slit my wrist or shoot my head off
i don't care, as long as it happens as soon as possible

so that's where i'll end-in a grave
where noone looks after me
i died like many others
but they shall die like us
so painful and useless