Soliloquies on another black day

« When the cold heavy sky weighs like a lid
on spirits whom eternal boredom grips
And the wide ring of the horizon's hid.
In daytime darker than the night's eclipse »

Coming back to reality all my dreams vanished into thin air
Damn the good times are over I try to fight against suffering and pain
I regret my sins, my act of betrayal, my murders,
my supreme treachery and my love lost nature
Solitude, welcome me slowly with open arms
Solitude, day by day hold me close to you, close to the harm
Torture erodes myself and my laments put me in distress.
I'm a mortal soul who only wants to rest in peace
Just have the company of this horrible skinned Fate,
laughing at me, making me crazy
I can't stand, I will not survive my wounds

Please, let me escape this punishment. I turn to you all will you forgive me ?
My mental has changed since I was brought on this wheel.
I ask you for being acquitted
Let me believe in that little piece of hope.
I'm not able to pay forever in that penance
I Could keep an eye on my behaviour with diligence :
Soliloquies on another black day

It looks darker & darker, solitude makes me wither
My litany is useless, are comin dereliction & depress
No more, I couldn't tolerate, was a tenacious person & I've become what I hate
Feel so stupid and so alone by Turnin round this wheel
My freedom and pride have gone, I've demolished my own life
All my nightmares come true, I've stabbed myself to death
But this is here I fell

« All at once the bells leap with rage and hurl a frightful roar at heaven,
Even as wandering spirits with no country burst into a stubborn, whimpering cry
And without drums or music, long hearses pass by slowly in my soul
Hope, vanquished,
Weeps, and atrocious, despotic Anguish on my bowed
skull plants her black flag. »

Hell Condemn me if you want
Forever I will laugh. I can escape with my thoughs