Against the grain

Well I'm standing on my last leg
Dejected world heed what I say
Caught up in lies and material gain
In given time the pleasure turns to pain
Won't crawl on all fours for you
I admit I've made some mistakes
Won't believe your truth is a lie
Determination: a creed to live by
Against the grain I try
Again I believe the lies
I won't cave to condescending ways
The sands of time is more than I can take
The war I wage within myself
I must find a way
To take control
Vow to never fall again
But I'm holding, holding on to pain
Although I know its all mundane
The creeper I must sow, protecting
Won't crawl on all fours for you
I admit I've made some mistakes
Won't believe your truth is a lie
Determination: a creed to live by
Against the grain I try
Again I believe the lies
Can't stand it for another day
I know its an illusion
Against the grain