Leave it up to you

I've got so much on my mind
I have to get it off my chest
Have to open up my mouth and speak the truth
I let the little words out right
But leave the biggest stone unturned
It's like I'm trying to keep the light from taking root
But I'm never gonna' clean this slate
At the rate I'm going
Have to dig in to find the strength
To follow through
I've shown forgiving myself is something I can't do
So I'll leave it up, leave it up to you
I'll leave it up to you
' Cause if it were up to me
To pull myself out of this place
A failure's what I'd be without your grace
' Cause it's never gonna' wash me clean
This muddy water
Your river is the only thing
To make me new
I've shown forgiving myself is something I can't do
So I'll leave it up, leave it up to you
I'll leave it up to you...
The God of a million second chances
' Cause the chances are
That I'll return and take the wheel
A million times or more