Can't keep living like this

Smoking to the filter
With heavy hearted breath
Dragging through my days
With gin soaked steps
Shooting at suvival
But aiming at success
Just another magic moment
I'll never know i've missed
And it's not that i don't care for living
I just can't keep living like this

Hanging on a wire
Suspended by a threat
That i'm reaching for an outcome
Thats well and truely dead
Drinking in the memories
But seeping out regrets
With my whole heart i hit it hard
To a reckless finesse
And i've lost more love
Than i cared to expect
But i can't keep living like this

Counting down my chances
One at a time
My heart knows me better
Than to seek the reasons
In these rhymes
No-ones asking how
No-ones asking why
No-ones saying fight
No-one even said to try
Just another chance i'll
I'll be quick to dismiss
But i can't keep living like this