I want cancer for christmas

They said to just be ourselves,
but we all knew that was never good enough
They said we had every chance,
but how could we not fuck it all up?

We would spend a life time trying to figure out how to make our hearts stop beating! We would spend a life time trying to figure out how to make ourselves stop breathing!

I remember grade school and started to notice that I was the only kid sitting alone. I remember high school and started to notice that not much had changed since I was six years old.

I would spend a lifetime trying to figure out how to make my heart stop beating! I would spend a lifetime trying to figure out how to make myself stop breathing! Stop breathing.