Avoiding places

It's been a while since I heard from you
And I know I was the one who chose that
It's just that you got me so confused
'Cause I thought you were the best I ever had

Even your mom texted me the other day
Saying I should come over for a coffee
And I bet if your dog could talk
Would ask about me too

And when you ask how I've been
I know I tend to hide it
'Cause I know you know how I've been
I wonder don't you mind it?

'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go
I know that every heart heals
And I should take it slow
But my anxiety keeps saying no

You are the best thing I wish I still had
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad
You are the best thing I wish I still had
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad

Don't get me wrong, I still wish you the best
I just don't know how I'd be if I saw you next
To that girl, oh no

I miss calling you love, feeling your love
So hard to see my babe saying that wasn't enough
It was so hard when I saw you had gone
To the place I wanted to take you to, with her

And when you ask how I've been
I wish I could say
That I'd be better
If you had chosen to stay

'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go
I know that every heart heals
And I should take it slow
But my anxiety keeps saying no

You are the best thing I wish I still had
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad
You are the best thing I wish I still had
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad

'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go
I know that every heart heals
And I should take it slow
But my anxiety keeps saying no
You are the best thing (The best thing)
I wish I still had (I wish I still had you)
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad (So bad, so bad)
You are the best thing (The best thing)
I wish I still had (I wish I still had you)
And I just get so mad
'Cause it just hurts so bad

I've been avoiding those places
But in the middle of those faces
I keep looking for yours
I keep looking for yours
And I still go
I hope they don't know (hope they don't know)
But I was kinda hoping you would show up