The first one to say goodbye

If I could take a pill
To forget ya, I would
If I could lose your smile from my mind
No doubt, I would
You keep showing up, messing up
All of my plans to erase you from my life
And it'd be the only way I could possibly survive

You gave up
But you weren't man enough to tell me
So you dragged my feelings up and down
You hid and turned me upside down
Pretended you could hear
But you were never, ever here
You told me you loved me in every way
But still wouldn't move a finger to make me stay

And I never cried so much
I've never been that hurt in my life
And you lied when you told me we'd be alright
How can it be?
When you were the first one to say goodbye

Boy, I've got nothing left to lose
I've got empty hands, shattered plans, and I'm all confused
But I got my soul, I got my pride and I'd never leave them behind
I loved you full time, I loved you full time
So you told me you loved me in every way
But still wouldn't move a finger to make me stay

And I never cried so much
I've never been that hurt in my life
And you lied when you told me we'd be alright
How can it be?
When you were the first one to say goodbye

You stole my friends
You shattered plans
I can't believe
You made me cry
I said goodbye
Still I can't leave
I want to know
Why you're so slow
Why couldn't you be
The man for me
I was your woman fully, fully

You told me you loved me in every way
But still wouldn't move a finger to make me stay
And I never cried so much
I've never been that hurt in my life
And you lied when you told me we'd be alright
How can it be?
When you were the first one to say goodbye