Mixed emotions

Sometimes I wish
I wasn't born.
Mixed emotions
About being here.
My thoughts just keep spinning.
Can't think clear.
It's not that I don't want to
Keep things real.

But it's hard.
So hard.
So hard to feel free.

I wanna talk to people.
Be someones friend.
But I can't stand this pressure.
Try hard to stay sane.
As I meet you in the street
My head will turn down.
I would wanna get out of there.
Wouldn't wanna be found.

Oh, it's hard.
So hard.
So hard to feel free