Vanish

Vanish in the world around me
Leaving ash and bone
My crown of thorns that shows no mercy
But its my own
I grace these walls with all my failures
What have I become?

I think its time for my forgiveness
Lick these wounds to heal
I'm losing faith, the silent poison
Pain I'd like to feel
I know its time
Lay down, surrender
Someone take control

'Cause I'm afraid to love
'Cause I'm afraid ill leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I dont want to walk
But I dont want to run
Cause I'm afraid of failing
In front of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings
I wont do the same
I cry in silent disappointed
Taking all the blame
But dark hour always finds me
Pulling far away

'Cause I'm afraid to win
'Cause I dont wanna lose
And I'm afraid of falling
Under harsh review

And I'm afraid to live
And I'm too tired to try
I hide behind these shadows
Turn off all the lights

This never ending longing feeling
Waiting to be loved
I still believe in in forever
But it never comes

I'm afraid to love
'Cause I'm afraid ill leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I'm afraid to walk
But I dont wanna run
And I'm afraid of hurting
Myself and everyone